1. Living without resistance - 6 September 1969
Is it possible for human beings to find out if they can live in a state of non-duality? The very nature of thought is to divide, bring about fragmentation as the observer, the experiencer, the watcher, and the thing watched, experienced observed. A great deal of energy is necessary to be alert, aware, sensitive, to understand this separative, dualistic life of resistance. Real meditation is when the mind is aware of itself and not creating the observer, the outsider who is looking in. Q: How can you live peacefully or with any degree of happiness, knowing the terrible and heart-rending things that are going on in the world? Q: Asking us to be silently aware of ‘what is’ seems to be asking too much. The pain of ‘what is’ seems to be much more than we can bear for any length of time without trying to escape from it.
2. Why are we not completely aware of the psychological dangers in which we live ? - 7 September 1969
The talk starts with a short introduction about the newly created school at Brockwood Park. One of our major problems is to be sensitive, not only to one’s own idiosyncrasies, fallacies and troubles but also to be sensitive to others. Why is it that we are not as aware of psychological dangers as we are of physical dangers? If one has to analyse everything every day, one has not the time or the energy. Perhaps we will be able to analyse everything by the end of one’s life, but by then life is finished. Dreaming and analysis. Can there be sensitivity if there is a space between the thing that is observed and the observer? Various questions were asked at the end of the talk.
3. Knowing what love is - 13 September 1969
Most of us are seeking some kind of deep significance or meaning to life. Honesty is to see exactly ‘what is’ without any distortion outwardly and inwardly. Love is not sentiment, an emotional state, because sentiment and emotion change, and where there is sentiment and emotion there is a great deal of cruelty and destructive ruthlessness. The most fundamental questions are: what is living, what is love, what is death? What is the relationship between thought and pleasure? Honesty, innocency and love must be the foundation of meditation. To meditate you need tremendous intelligence and sensitivity, which comes through knowing oneself completely. Various questions were asked at the end of the talk.
4. Meditation is the beginning of understanding oneself - 14 September 1969
Meditation and systems. One can only observe when there is no image through which one is looking. When I look at myself, is the observer different from the thing looked at? We are living in the past, we are the past, and all our activities stem from the past, and so for most of us thought is enormously important. It is part of meditation to find out when the act of thinking is absolutely necessary and when thought must be absolutely quiet. You can meditate while active, but perhaps it may help sometimes to sit quietly by yourself, or when you walk alone, to observe yourself and your reactions. I can only listen to you when the mind is completely quiet, not resisting, agreeing or disagreeing, but actually listening with my whole being. Various questions were asked at the end of the talk.
5. How am I to become extraordinarily alert ? - 9 September 1969
Can I, being somewhat neurotic, look at myself? Why should I take a drug when there is a much more direct, simple way of looking at myself, which is in my relationship? Will drugs help me to get over my neuroticism? What am I to do when I know I am neurotic? You have helped me to watch myself and to be aware of my neuroticism. Can you help me to go much deeper, or can you help me only up to a certain point? How can I have the energy, the vitality, the intensity which makes me observe intensely? I am learning that deeply nobody can help me, because the helper is helping me according to his conditioning. Where there is attention there is an abundance of energy.
6. Can I live completely without resistance ? - 11 September 1969
Is it a fact that resistance is a wastage of energy? Any form of conclusion or opinion is a resistance, and divides people. I recognise I am resisting and I am learning about it, so my mind is curious to find out why I am resisting. Why do I have opinions? Thought takes hold of natural biological urges and demands, and transforms them into something we call cravings and appetites. Resisting and yielding. Shall I resist fear by cultivating courage? Can I live without comparison?